And for you I keep my legs apart
And forget about my tainted heart
And I will never ever be the first to say it
But still I, yes you know, I..I..I..
I would do it
Push the button
Pull the trigger
Climb a mountain
Jump off a cliff
Cause you know baby I love you love you
A little bit

If you would do it
If you would say it
If you would mean it
That we could do it
If it was you and I, not only I
Ha, hmm

I think I'm a little bit,
A little bit
A little bit in love with you
But only if you're a little bit
Little bit
Little bit
In lalalala love with me


:: Little Bit - lykke li

happy-la-la. hahaha.... i love you karin. you're so rubbish, just like me.


i wish i'd stop procrastinating cos i know i'm so gonna regret this.

i'm very caught up in this whole gg out thing. i wonder if this will turn into an unhealthy obsession. for some reason, i find it especially hard every time to find a good balance. adaptive dissonance.


i brought daddy and zehzeh and sean to have nepalese food today and then to enjoy the cool night views afforded us by tekka mkt hdb bubble lifts. fucking fantastic. it's really funny how i feel so much more comfortable and less apprehensive in little india than i do in chinatown. esp since my face like damn cina one-kind. sean said i look like some crazy china woman, traipsing down race course rd, weaving in and out of clusters of loiterers, my carelessly-kiap'd hair and my excessive number of bags bouncing up and down in tandem with my garang gait. and my false look of purposefulness. i can't help it, really. well it's not tt i want to. hah.

then we tried out the new circle line. (how is it pple say this place is boring when i can find so many things to be excited bout every day? see, terence? i told you i was resourceful... extremely ludicrously so.) zehzeh and sean alighted at paya lebar and daddy and i took the train to the end. we got out at marymount to recce a bit and to orientate ourselves. then on the way back in, we bitched bout the silly shiny floors and how these were so impractical (i really hate shiny floors in public places cos when wet, it's just a disaster waiting to happen. and with my kind of luck, i'm always the one to be slipping and sliding all ovr the place). in the train home, we stood at the front of the first car so we could admire the brilliantly-dark tunnels. in between, we tried to make sense of the pictoral instructions for emergency evacuation, which were pasted nxt to the viewing window. not clear at all... very ineffective, we concluded. i hope to goodness tt i'll never have to use this emergency exit, otherwise sure habis sia.

ok enough for now. gots to go and shower and get some sleep. i'm getting to be pretty sloppy. not good not good.

:: Turn On Billie - the pierces

i have this theory bout relationships tt i haven't really told many pple..

if your other half hurts you, or dumps you or something awful like tt, you'll end up inadvertently doing tt same thing to the next person you get into a relationship with. it's kind of like paying it forward but it's only the negative things tt get passed on.

i suspect this theory is only applicable to me. i don't want to hurt anyone the way i got hurt though. and anyway, i don't think i could find it in me to be half as cowardly as to dump anyone on fb either.

i'm not sure wat my point is. i guess it's tt i'm afraid of getting into anything. but there are things tt i do want but then i don't want to rush but then i feel like time is running out but then maybe the life tt i want isn't meant for me----- COGNITIVE DISSONANCE!!!!!

there are soo many things i wanna do.. which wouldn't be a problem if i had infinite amount of time as a young, lucid, fertile person. i'm so glad i didn't succumb to my adolescent suicidal tendencies cos tt would've just cut my time short by a nympholot, wouldn't it.

watching vids on tv5monde now. need to improve my french quite badly... vocab is kind of wonky now. ok, i'm gonna try to listen to one french vid a day.

i really need to start reading the papers.. and all the things i said i was gonna read this morning. laters. oh wait, before i go.. i know i haven't been writing lately. i'm so engrossed and busy with other stuff. but i think i've got to find time to so my little intrapersonal blablah cos when everyone goes, all i've got is myself. what am i blabbering bout? okok laters.

it's good friday today, so i've decided to abstain from gimi. we havent seen each other since last sat so this is a bit trying but i have to make up for not being a good girl the whole of lent so there. i'm trying not to indulge in food tt i like too. zehzeh says tt i should sacrifice going online but i reckon this will be asking too much of me. yes, maybe next yr. haha.

so i woke up at 11 plus and read the papers and watched tv. two things i havent done in quite a while for more than 15 consecutive mins. mostly cos for the past 3 weeks, i've been caught up with my course and hanging out with gimi and being restless in general. today is my self-imposed reading day. i'm attempting to get through a couple of days worth of ST papers, and a whole bunch of backdated magazines- 3 issues of I-S, french cosmopolitan, and aussie cleo- all of which i've amassed over the past month.

i'm starving right now.. only allowed myself two slices of two plain squished bread (tt i packed for brekky yesterday but didnt eat cos i ended up having yakun frm boonlay) spread with a moderate amount of butter and cinnamon sugar. tt was brunch. then for tea, i had four cherry tomatoes. ok i think i'm just gonna go find more food to eat right now. it's getting unbearable. (i think tt is actually the whole idea behind abstenance but i think not seeing gimi is enough punishment so i will mosey to the fridge right now and you will not stop me!)