it still amazes me and always will, how anyone can create a song that - just by listening - i can feel exactly what the words say. Even when i can't hear what the lyrics are.
i first saw the video and the heard the song two days ago. I couldn't make out the words but i felt the bittersweet irony in it. a song of bittersweet decadence and comforting familiarity of an inextricable melange of pain and love? of course i was hooked. and i recognised myself in her; the way i literally throw myself around the room, against the wall, onto the bed, against any surface, when my body is bursting with emotion. i am, of course, not half as graceful as wats her name, but if i did have some sort of dance training, i'd probably look exactly like she does in the vid.
i know if i let someone like maybe say, zehzeh, watch the vid, they'd go like.. oh ok nice song. or mm ok only lah. and I promise i'll try not to get frustrated by the lack of empathy. but i will never understand why i can feel so much through music while others can't. prob the same reason why pple like poetry or fiction or alcohol while those things just don't speak to me at all.
this post is pretty pointless. i guess i just wanted to say tt i've found a new song to make me high - a sad, ironic kind of high. If i could sing this i would. reminds me of the build up of energy i felt from listening to cosmic love. the unbeatable euphoria tt no one else i know seems to understand.
in other related news, i've met someone called taufik on an online dating chat. he looks pretty intimidating but we're having such great conversation. for the first time in a long time, i seem to have met someone new who feels music the way i do. how dangerous. cos really, while i feel it's a gift, it can really also be a curse to feel so passionately about something so intangible yet so real. (i mean music, not the man.)
i've been using this site for a the past few weeks and i'm really happy not everyone on it is as weird as one might expect them to be. ok, sorry, tt's was so terribly biased. i'm sure there are pple on the site who think i'm weird. what i meant was i'm glad to have found more than a couple of guys on the site who seem to be on the same wavelength as me when it comes to .. i dunno.. music, outlook on life, background, and (this is the language nazi in me speaking) the way they speak (or type, rather). is it horrible of me to ignore the men who "wanna b frenz wif" me? i think not. cos i think i know how much language matters when it comes to shaping one's thoughts and worldview and from experience, i know i dont seem to connect so well with pple who can't get a pun. and i wouldn't want anyone to change for me. so - there you go- i think i'm being fair by not raising their hopes. ok, so back to chatting right now. laters.
oh yes, and erm.. long time no see. haha.