A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud as it tore through them,
and now it's left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
Oooh...

I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
Oooh...

:: Cosmic Love - florence and the machine


this song makes me feel like i'm in love.
you know, i was walking through citylink just now, away frm my favourite haunt, and i thought bout how music brings out the strongest and most extreme emotions in me frm one end of the spectrum to another. like no one and nothing else can. it makes me feel like im experiencing things all over again. like this song makes me feel like i'm in love and how passenger makes me feel like i'm really having sex (doesnt make me wet or anything like tt but you know what i mean). music seems to evoke every possible emotion in me and somehow it feels like i dont need to live with the outside world anymore. once i've experienced every emotion possible in my life, all i have to do is lock myself in a room and then put the music on, and any emotion i want to relive, i can relive just by popping in the right track.

i cant even begin to explain it properly- the ecstacy tt overtakes me when i hear certain musical arrangements. i cant think of anyone else i know who feels as emotional bout music as i do. considering the ridiculous number of pple ive known up tto this point in my life, i'm sure there's at least someone, i just prob don't realise. i guess i'm able to be this affected by music largely cos i let myself. i think tt's something a lot of pple don't do. they don't let go enough. i've held it in too much in the past so i'm over and done with tt. haha i'm so emo. not like storyoftheyear kind of emo, but like emotional emo.

i'm really amazed at pple who arrange music so ingeniously like in this song. i don't even have to think bout the words to feel like im in cosmic love. and wat an apt title. some songs try too hard to make you feel this or that or have act-cool titles. cosmic love is just exactly wat it is. how unpretentious. and with an unbeatable build-up. am i sounding too cool for sch? haha does tt mean i can pontang tmr? i hope my current job will never become a bane big enough to turn me totally off.

i think you're obsessed. and it's so godaamn bleedingly obvious.
but i'm totally revelling in it. dammit.

it wouldn't be so terrible if i knew for sure tt you were also just in this for a good time. but i won't know cos i won't ask. and i'm getting carried away on this wave of anticipation tt it's really scaring me. i guess feeling confused is better than not feeling at all, yes?

kariiiiiiiiiiiiin!!!!!!!! howwwwwww nowwwwwwwwww laaaaaaaaaaaah??????? HAHHA. shit.

:: Love That Will Last - renee olstead

good jam today. didn't get to meet daddy though. cos i was lounging round the hse with terence. let him sleep on the sofa after his supper at changi village. cos i waited up to let him in, and cos if youtube, i slept ridiculously late in the mornite and then had trouble remaining asleep. finally gave up sleeping and got out of bed at 11. so we sat round watching tv, marking hmwk, and then later jamming. by the time we made it out of the hse to get lunch, it was 3. i'm so good at fucking up my body clock and creating plenty of opportunity to fall sick. oh well.

jammed at boons other studio which was surprisingly nice so we're going back there next jam. loo and cheam made fun made fun cos i told loo bout terence sleeping over. oh well. i was expecting it i guess. on the topic of things of this nature, i don't think i will ever see the day where i can say to myself confidently tt i'm truly sure of my feelings for anyone to the point where i can articulate them point by point, loudly and proudly. at least not in the near future. i felt so sure bout dylan but tt's gone now. i wonder if anyone will come by and make me feel tt way again. i see a couple of possiblities but we'll just wait and see what happens. i don't want to rush things and have them turn out like me and lidong. i wonder how he is now, tt boy. i'm quite sure he's doing good without a friend like me. and i'm not trying to be sarcastic.

today's jam was enjoyable. everyone was in good spirits and it just felt really fun. i'm relieved the tectonic plates in taiwan did not swallow our bassist. yay and yippee. i like how we all get along so well. i don't think it's something we should take for granted. oh, wonder if there'll be some (non-religious) xmas gigs for us. a sleepy but fulfilling, tune-filled day.

we had a very satisfying gig at earshot the other day. i'm very pleased. aside from a few cock-ups, i think we did more than fine. kevin and kim and tim came. and mark chan too. and some of my bacins were there. plus some vox friends. jing and nurul came down too. so it was all pretty nice. got more pple than tt lah, but these are the ones who im assuming came for me. {:o) oh ya, terence was also tt cos he better bloody be. haha. the bcs claimed tt the waitress stopped dead in her tracks when i started singing.. i'm sure they meant this in a good way. i'm really happy cos got lots of positive feedback. kevin said awesome set and to tell him when the next one is. and kim apparently told mummy the next day tt i sounded like jewel. ok lah, tt one comment, i don't quite agree with lah but was nice anyway hahah. terence said it was a really good set. so tt's at leats two pple who have a good ear who liked the set. i'm pretty happy bout tt. no, actually.. i'm fucking pleased. {:oDDDDD
personally, i think brown eyes blue was one of the best. wanna do soem informal polling to see which songs hit home.

yesterday, an and din's hari teristimewa (hahah.. my new fav word). tiring but nice to watch. i'm quite determined to have a void deck wedding. now the problem is finding a non-muslim who's up for it. not cos i got anything against muslims, but only because i fucking love my babi and babat too much. so, my handsome mats... sorry, man; i can't do mock pork (not longterm, at least) but i can make do with mock-malay (see: melayu-looking eurasian, chindian, dark chinese, french???...)

so anyways, there's my busy week over and done with. good to know i survived tt. this week psle. meh meh meh. i'm working really hard right now... on avoiding the stack of compositions i'm spposed to be marking right now.