Tuesday, August 31, 2004

talking to michelle chan on msn now. i'm telling her bout how i want to set up a band called The Puspalms. i've mentioned the reason to you before. the surname is gonna die out here and i don't want it to. but it'll be hard for adam, timmy and me (whom i plan to have in the band haha - haven't thought of who else yet) to recah a compromise on what music to play cos our tastes are different. but when we do- if we do- we'll be the neo-weddingsingers for eurasian weddings. haha. play some old stuff and some new shit too. wow, how fun it will be! haha i'm getting excited by the mere idea.

listening to: Besame Mucho, the beatles

ooh c'est si bon. i wonder how far i'd go to make my dreams come true and how far my dreams will last before they're eaten away by my laziness. i'm so bored. i need someone to besame- mucho mucho! haha...



Puff was but my pipe dream.


Friday, August 27, 2004

i'm feeling sick in my stomach. emotional and mental disquiet always channels itself to my stomach. and i feel really really sick.

somebody please hold my hand while i puke.

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

stupid massina.

i totally forgot bout the tix for Little Victories. me and zehzeh spposed to bring shana to watch it this saturday. and i cant get hold of zehzeh; need her credit number to book tix.

i can't get hold of jon who spposed to get back to me on the JCs replies regarding our fucking survey. daryl is being so fucking susah. i will not let him have any say in the project if he's gonna continue being such a prick; not like he even attends grp meetings.

writing is becoming such a drag. i don't have the energy to go cover tt story on thurs. watever.

HMV classical music section. she's got a piercing near her mouth, black black hair, and this air bout her -- lovely. i could stare at her forever but i'm too much of a no-lifer. the day someone looks at me like tt... tt would be the day.

i need a bit more meaning in my life. am kindof looking forward to indie-pendent. shit... just remembered i also have to cantor for mass tt weekend.

Friday, August 20, 2004

thong thong thong thong thong thong

watch out, boys. guard your girls, cos it's not you i'm after.
4.06am. just uploaded my events feature onto msn groups. glad i caught women's gymnastics in the morning that day. i love watching certain sports. if i could turn back the time, i'd be doing more sports but i can't so i'll settle for doing it vicariously through everyone else.

listening to: The Waltz, silje nergaard

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Once in a good while, you might find somebody to love you, yeah
Kind of like you momma,

or your grandmomma watching above you, ooh yeah

I hope that you'll stay for the night
I've made the bed and I've saved your side
Make me over, bring me to the light
Until the sunshine opens my eyes
Wake with a smile and I'll-
I'll see you in a little while

la la la...

They say I've changed since I've been living without you, yeah
I can't stay in one place,

the memories they chase me around the room
I planted a shade tree and I lay there thinking about you, yeah
The leaves fall around me,

I'd love to blow away with them if I could

Sometimes you win, sometimes you don't
Ride my landslide out with the tide
You ain't going nowhere, if you're going there alone
Hold me over, the next flight's mine
Tears with a smile and I'll-

I'll see you in a little while
la la la...

I used to waste my sweet time, till you arrived
Now I don't know how I'll spend my time alive
When it's over, all said and done
Bags packed, tags checked, front of the line
I'll lay in clover, under the sun
Lift my eyes up to the sky and smile cause I'll-


I'll see you in a little while la la la...
I'll see you in a little while la la la...
I'll see you in a little while



(In A Little While, hot action cop)

Sunday, August 15, 2004

i just got news that keith andrew morton died in a car accident yesterday. they think alcohol was involved.

i duno wat to think. this is the first young person i know personally who has died. it sounds cliche, but when things like this happen, you're forced to look at life a little different.
i interviewed keith 3 weeks ago for the article on spices tt i was doing for hype. he was a chef and he was gonna open a restaurant in october. and i just found out tt he was interested in renee (my cousin) and tt my interviw had given him the excuse to come for our family gathering 3 weeks ago. it's so so sad; he had so much going for him.

this is for you, Keith~ (ziggy marley's Drive on play)

Saturday, August 14, 2004

so i finally decided to start on my scriptwriting hmwk tt was due last friday, and guess wat? ms persson conveniently decides to cancel class cos she's sick at the last min. tsk. oh well, at least i know i've got the hmwk off my back lah.

there was some fms party at sch this evening. i just dropped by to check it out and also to kaypoh the pple who were covering it for Trib and UW. then had to leave early with jermaine cos i had to take cab and pick zehzeh frm smu. i didn't want to leave actually. i miss hanging out and listening to music at the atrium, and today was the first time in a long time tt i could do it, but had to pick zehzeh. i was irritated all the way home in the cab.

online, i was talking to pam-ah-ma and michelle (separately) and i told them tt i felt the need recently to meet new pple. it's not tt i don't already have a lot of friends (in fact someitmes i have so many i forget some), but since sch started, i've been feeling the urge to forge new relationships. and i was hoping to meet some pple whom i can be close friends with. if i were an outsider, i'd think this as a very corny idea and slightly loserly. i don't know why i feel this way; like i wanna get out and meet new pple cos i feel like someone or something is waiting for me.

zehzeh said she wants to go clubbing tmr but i just realised tt i threw my nice giordano jeans into the wash. i was thinking maybe i could go to cheekys next friday.

did i mention tt i secretly want to be an ed or designer or in the pap team for trimedia? (i guess it's not secret anymore since i'm writing it here). i get a high when i feel like i belong somewhere and feel driven. plus, i love the old school furniture in the newroom. the hype eds/designers are going zouk tonight i think. they were talking bout it while i cut my freshly-printed namecards in the newsroom. the past few wks have mostly been just sch, french, stoning in front of comp, sleeping on public transport. i need to get out a bit more, ya.

Certain pple give me vibes and i hope it lasts:: Could you take my picture cos i won't remember.

Glenn (meyer) is organising some talentime contest thing as part of his third yr project and he's asking me to join. i don't know if i can afford the time. maybe i don't even want to. i haven't written any songs or poems lately. wat have i been doing with all my time?

Monday, August 09, 2004

i thought of you last night. where did you go? i can see you but you're just not the same so i keep rubbing my eyes and going closer to make sure i've really lost it. i guess i shouldn't ask why cos i'm not the same person myself. people change. but irrevocably?


i haven't been thinking much lately, just doing a lot of procrastinating. i'll be handing in a late assignment (for script) on tuesday - my second or third this yr. it's not tt i place standards for myself extremely high. i just expect close to the best from me but i haven't been giving tt lately.
anyway, so i've been doing lots of last minute work and sleeping damn late at night (or early in the morning). i realised just now tt i have 3 factsheets due on tuesday on top of my script thing. great going, me.

i saw Dim Sum Dollies on thursday. aunty grace bought like 18 or something tickets for the whole family. we took the whole of the centre of a row in circle 1. the show was damn hilarious. laughed until i got stomachache. especially the parking pontianak act. eh anyone wants a listen just tell me; i bought the cd. aunty meng says some of emma yong's mannerisms remind her of me. i take tt as a compliment, though michelle tells me tt emma's quite diva-ish and all. her voice and her talent are really something.

moving on... after graduation next yr, i will go on a few holidays before i get a job cos once i start getting salary, i'm not entitled to free tickets frm SQ anymore and tt'll just suck.

elaine and jon (and aunty peng and uncle steven) have been down frm london the past week or so and we've been hanging out with them a bit. today we went to spore island country club and i got to linger with the upper crust. i think i still prefer lepaking at the kopitiam. i'm more a heartlander hah. besides, the upper lot weren't very comfortable having me swaggering up and down their club with my samseng walk. chey, they no fun lah. they and their golf. the good thing is, i swam for the first time in goodness knows how long and now i'm tanned! cept for my face, which may be a bit crispy. i think maybe i do like swimming. i should do it more often since it's the only fun sport recommended for pple with wonky knees.