i think, for me, the speed at which a period of time seems to have gone by depends largely on the things I think about that happened within that time span. for example, when i think bout how long I've been with this sch, time seems to have dragged on. When I think bout the summer holidays till now, time seems to have flown by. I don't really have a point to make. except that I wish blogger would stop fucking auto-correcting my posts and making my writing seem proper and unauthentic. it is very annoying.

i'm having trouble thinking of something that I did this year that was really fulfilling or memorable or rewarding. almost sleeping with shrd? ok, sorry, tt was pretty random. not falling into depression? well done on tt, Amelia. writing fantastic student reports (120 of them!)? well ya I guess tt was a pretty good effort.

it seems just yesterday tt bestie and I whatsapped one another happy new year wishes, coupled with our customary wishes for her visa situation and my dry season to go better. it's been 365 days since then... not much change. couple of times in the year, we almost made it, but it seems we're both right back where we started. ok, let's not be cynical here... Karin's thing seems pretty hopeful so i should direct all the good juju there so tt at least one of us gets wat she's been waiting for. *cross fingers*

i don't think 21-yr-old me ever imagined that things would be this way for 28-yr old me. i don't even dare to imagine now wat it would be like another 5 years from now. maybe i'd be vegetarian and living in china as a nun. FAAAR OUT. but things happen right? wthough are the things tt haven't and might not happen. about 7 hours ago i remember feeling pretty close to being depressed bout having nothing to do and no one to hold this midnight. i hope it's just the hormones. :(