:: Can't Stop Now - keane

keane's songs are so incredibly poignant. i'm a sucker for things like that because i like to be reminded of what it's like to hurt inside. just to be sure i'm still alive, i assure you.

well, anyways. i got into uwa and i'm so so happy and excited. i've kind of decided what four subjects i wanna take in my first yr: linguistics, french, music and anthropology. but of course, i might change my mind in time to come.

one week down and one more to go. i remember asking myself: what is love if you didn't miss tt someone when they were gone? i like this relationship cos i'm learning to do things i never knew i could.

i lepak'd outside taka with jon and liy sunday cos i had time to kill before meeting daddy. there are pple i wish i make more effort to spend time with. vien; i haven't seen her in ages, let alone hung out with her. andrew; timing is always bad. dom; i guess our conversations have almost always been online but we've never really made the effort to meet up in sch so ya. durga; timing also always a bit sallah. these are the pple i can think of now but i'm sure this isn't all.

sometimes i'm anxious to hang out with a person and then the meeting turns out to be a disappointment, painfully - and sometimes unexplainably - awkard. Maybe it's cos of crankiness, bad timing, misunderstanding and other watever things. or it could simply be because time and space just built up between us. it's happened to me a couple of times recently and i'm afraid it will become too familiar.

i think after i had decided to go apply for uni, i've been trying to break away frm commitments and avoid making new ones. i just want to start from somewhere new without being held back by anything. funny tt i should say this, since i know myself to be one who's constantly clinging to times gone by. i just want try and make it on my own, you know? i want to know how far i can take myself without guidance. i think i'm learning. i'm learning.