hallo. i have been away for a long time i see. so i didn't resolve the connection crap but i'm gonna switch to singnet broadband soon so it should be fine by then.

andrew, i'm sorry to disappoint you. i also once thought i understood you well, but i'm getting wiser and trying not to make unnecessary assumptions (such as assuming tt i am clever enough to make assumptions) bout you, or anybody for tt matter. i couldn't help but feel embarrassed but i will learn to deal with myself. but i think i understand you more than most pple do... if tt's any consolation. i also dont like it when pple anyhow blurt my blog address and my secrets so i know how it feels, but i'm just really proud of the way you write. but i wont be giving it out no more, don't worry.


i want this book: how to be HAPPY, dammit by Karen Salmansohn


saw it in the newsrm this afternn. we went round sch in geraldine's car to distribute copies of hype today. i envision myself the next colin goh (the guy who talks cock)... i think. hur. quick someone, spot me. i am witty you know. ehhhhhhhhh.

i have ambitions. the last actdir project and script i did for scriptwrit have convinced me tt i should go into scriptwriting. ok. i'm just relieved the sem is nearly over.

i finally got down to waxing so i could go for karol's sister's pool party. feels good to swim and for the first time, i actually treaded water and ventured to the deep-end. i am becoming more confident in the water - yay. i feel like i'm going through puberty again; the awkward feelings, the guy-watching, the wondering if i'm really lesbian, the irregular periods, the Godless-ness, the occasionally fluctuating esteem. i wore a dress today.

hier: saw a movie with mich chan then we discussed stuff tt amuses us over pasta and potato salad. then i walked bout by myself and i concluded tt the great thing bout being alone (i don't mean single, i mean alone) is tt i dont have anyone to feel awkward around except for myself.

i played another tune just now on the piano and in my head. and i wondered if i could inspire someone to write a nice song tt would have the same effect on pple tt good songs have on me.

listening to: Ghost of You and Me, bbmak