where do tears go when you hold them back? after about two hrs of refusing to cry in public, the tide of tears i'd been holding back had mysteriously disappeared. but i suddenly felt really lightheaded and stoned. where did the tears go? will they become toxic and pollute my insides? do they flow back into a common pool of saltwater and find a way out through someone else's eyes? will they reappear, disguised as viscous nasal secretion? maybe they will lie dormant, and wait for the next time to reappear, crashing onto the floor in torrents.

i haven't had time to play guitar yet. blurgh.


stupid visa. gotta do it tmr. ugh. more like later today. got job interview/trial too at 5pm. bye