when i'm emotionally riled up the way i am now and have a motherload of sch work to do, i have trouble deciding if the emotions are getting in the way of my work or the work is getting in the way of my emotions. a confusion of priorities.

i know i should be thankful tt i have time to get angry. if you really think about it, not everyone has tt luxury. sometimes being this lucky (blessed?) makes me nervous. will i wake up one day and find it all gone? though if it all went to someone deserving (in a kind of pass the parcel kind of way), i wouldn't be so devastated. or would i?