ok this whole retirement things just sucks ass. i'm bored out of my wits. i think it actually wouldn't be so bad if i wasn't sick. then at least i could go out jamming on the weekends and spend the weekdays checkin out gigs, going for a walky walk to keep the blood moving in my system.. instead of planting my ass on the couch the whole day and have mummy nag at me cos she secretly thinks i'm a bum.

plus, i think i have tonsilitis.

but- life has been worse than this yes? ok i'm trying to be optimistic. i'm getting fucking annoyed with all this stupid job searching and having my celta application disappear on the way to the british council... job searching should be fun. i love filling in forms. cept when i have to do the same form twice. i hate having to call people up. i dont like it and i have no explanation. i guess i don't owe anyone one but er ya.

had grand plans to get out of the hse to go check out the band auditions at b&j but mummy is making me go for penitential service with zehzeh at 9pm. TSK. RGH. and the parents aren't going. why? cos they got married outside of the church. why? cos both of them were previously divorced and the church doesn't condone remarriage. why? cos the pple who make up these rules have never been married so wat the fuck do they know bout choosing wrong partners. mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.