:: Human - the killers (on mtv)

i havent bought or made anyone anything for xmas. my laziness has gotten the better of me and i know this is not good. next yr will be different and next yr will be better, yes? i haven't stopped reeling from the year. i don't even know how to describe it yet.

got bored and did a random test:

Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satisfied. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What's Your Inner Color?

i gave in and looked at his msn nickname. i don't know wat i was expecting when i did it; i guess i was hoping he was sick of her already or didn't manage to save enough to go to kk. but i'm a fool- cos dylan gets what dylan wants. i guess it still stings.

i've applied for a couple more jobs and one or two volunteer things. the whole teaching assistant thing has left me thinking maybe it's not gonna work out. i don't think it's a waste leaving it as it is now instead of trying again to get through to them. cos maybe it's a sign i've something more important out there waiting for me. i just wanna do something useful, you know?

my throat is feeling tons better today thanks to danzen the miracle orange pill. being sick has cost me several outings and a jamming session. i'm glad to be getting better. staying at home doing squat wouldn't actually be so bad if it helps me learn more bout myself but i'm not sure i know more right now than i did several weeks ago. i'm lazyindulgentlazyindulgentlazylazylazy- tt i know all too well already.

i'm not in love, no no.