zeh zeh is leaving a week from now. i ahven't had time to think bout it or get sad bout her leaving. i'm afraid it'll only kick in when it's too late. it's gonna take some getting used to, no doubt, and i'm feeling a bit scared.

i didn't really want to be alone for dinner today. but it turned out tt way nevertheless. i wonder if i'll ever get used to this.

i'm so incredibly tired. i want tmr to be be better. and the day after tt to be even better, if at least a little. please.