i never imagined in my life tt i'd have mormon friends. i guess it's not like i had a real choice tonight. i kind of panicked when i saw the recognizable nametags and shirts with the ties and all. i was really thinking to myself omg wat have i just walked into. and then not long after i sat dwn, this woman next to me starts comparing our indecisiveness with the dishes to moses and "wat a logistical nightmare he must've faced with all his israelites *chuckle chuckle* ". honestly, i was more freaked out than amused, but thank goodness it all turned out to be a nice cordial dinner thing. they're actually quite sweet boys and surprisingly tolerable when they're not trying to convert anyone. do i sound like i'm totally making unfair assumptions? no comment.

anyways, the ramen soup was fucking awesome. and the afro boys were really easy to talk to. cute. haha. auntyj was saying how everything was "God's plan". despite the fact tt i thought she and her friend could have afforded to talk a little less bout God, i do agree with the whole idea of God's plan. but i also believe God plays by ear. so God, wat plans have you with regards to my dormant love life? ok then, how bout sex life? no? maybe? ya... ok, but like when, man? okok relax, i'm just asking only lah.. i mean... never mind.

fb tells me it's heather's bday today. i "kinda really" miss my ottawa times. i wish billy and i really had thought of jamming and busking together sooner. i want another soy maple latte moyen stp. argh second cup days. it was fun being tt francophonie asian chick no one could figure out. -hallo bonjour qu'est-ce que vous prenez? -are you from australia? -are you from quebec?
i miss the shopping at loeb and loblaws and trudging up tt slope with my excessive groceries. i miss cooking in the kitchen with heinz and sharing my meals with donis. sitting dwnstairs in the freezing cold trying to play heather's guitar and make up songs bout grapes (in english AND spanish! haha). oh those were good times.

(in my head):: The Scientist - natasha bedingfield
this is a damn power version. power terama!


this is a personal observation... but it seems like once you've one non-platonic romantic relationship, platonic romantic relationships seem to become obsolete. and i'm not just talking bout myself ok.

i feel like i've got an abcsess at the back of my sinuses. it feel terrible and i prob should sleep early. you know tt feeling when you're at the cusp of a throat infection? it feels just like tt but only its at the back of my nose.

i;ve been wondering lately what i'd feel if i found out i was infertile. i remember thinking some time ago, tt if i indeed turned out to be so, i'd probably be devastated. but i duno... seems like now i don't feel like i've got much hope anyway. tt once-frightening possibility of being stuck in this school forever and inadvertently growing old with its ageing doors and pillars is starting to seem quite real. i don't know if i wanna bother so much bout my future anymore.