i'm wondering if i should go... i mean, wat am i going to do at a party where i feel like i'm the only one not drinking? and now tt i can't even do shisha, i seriously won't have anything to do aside frm holding the guitar and pretending to look cool. i don't like pretending i'm enjoying myself when i'm really feeling very awkward inside.

i'm wondering now if i'm even invited.

this is where my self-esteem does a titanic. no big deal... just the monthly nonsense. same ole same ole. maybe i should get viral again, like last yr. but if i remember correctly, staying at home alone was quite a downer too. i need a muse ment, if you know wat i mean. {:o(