just wondering... is it possible to make decision independent of the past? like, decide something without considering the past. this really brings to question: when making decisions, do you look forward or backwards for reference and guidance?. And, is it possible to make a decision independently, without any reference to the past or future?
woah... i'm going a bit too fast for myself.
i'm talking to my long-lost cousin via icq. isn't actually blood-relation , cos he was from the 1st marriage, before his mother married my uncle peter. aiyoh... yes, yes - 'tis yet another complex story in the chronicles of my unconventionally-extended family. anyway he's been estranged since his mother died. i really wonder what prompted him to look up my sister via icq today (the same way i had searched him bout 4yrs ago- i don't recall what'd prompted me actually). he didn't seem to like us much during our 1st and last meeting we'd arranged after i'd found him (which explains why it was the last). seemed determinedly aloof. maybe he's changed his mind. i hope this is all for the better. this prodigal-cousin thing spices up my holis a bit. which is good right?
been reading my sue miller bk. a bit disappointing cos none're as good as Inventing the Abbots. i feel tempted to stop reading the bk altogether. it's like how you have a sweet memory of something, then a more recent variation happens and taints that immaculate memory. and then you just wish the latter had never come along and spoilt it all. yeah, that happens quite a bit doesn't it? - relates to how disappointed i was that the cute cheery angelo i knew as a kid was far from the one i'd arranged to meet for dinner 4yrs ago. i remember that almost immediately, i began to regret contacting him. but he seems less hostile now, even laughed at my anecdote. so i think we'll be fine. ya, we'll be fine.