listening to: Alone - heart

i always dread having one of these yr-end festive things turn into a lousy instance not unlike tt of the eve of new yrs day '03, which resulted in my feeling extremely loserly and lousy. hark! the invalid laments and whines and begs the kind of attention she hasn't gotten since midyr '02. damn you, shitty life, damn you!! ah-ha-ha.

i fell asleep while sitting with my head down on the mrt today and my saliva trickled into my sinus. hmmm, wat a curious feeling.

i also dread tt i will make the same mistake as mummy and marry someone like daddy. he's not a bad person i guess, he just has different priorities. i remember when andrew was talking bout moving out and stuff and he said something bout the money and i was suddenly reminded of daddy and tt really really scared me cos i never thought i'd make such a connection. foolish games, amelia. foolish games.


i guess sometimes just being nice doesn't quite cut it.


listening to: The Color of You - lisa ekdahl