right now, the smell of wet grass and the sound of moonlight sonata and the occasional whirr of my fan.

i was irritable just now cos he wasn't coming over and i had expected him to; i was sulking on the phone. and i fear i've evolved into one of those pple who talk bout their girlfriend/boyfriend on their blogs all the time. i fear i've become one of those girls who whine and fawn over their boyfriends. so this is what being in a relationship is like(?). i guess up till now, i'd forgotten how perplexed these things make me feel. this was wat i was missing for 3 years? sometimes we like or dislike things, then time passes and we forget why. occasionally i feel the urge to remind myself why i love and hate certain things. sometimes i realise my tastes have changed, sometimes i don't.

the grass is dry now and i don't smell anything. come back, come back! please.


i'm feeling lethargic and tetchy now but it can't be pms.

my pay has not been confirmed yet and if i'm not getting 1000/mth at least, then i might not take the job, since the recruitment agency seems to have so many better jobs. duno lah. this tentative feeling is making me feel uncomfortable, just like the dreams i had last night. i was in secondary school and i saw pple i did not like. mr teo et al. and then there was canteen food but the stall owners were different. the food was different and didn't whet my appetite. and there was an emptiness in the faces of the stall owners. they were new, but not shiny or happy. just new and sad and dull. i don't understand what i am emoting right now.

my room is a new colour. 2 coats of a purple shade called Allure. i don't quite care bout the name, really. maybe if it had been a purple called Popcorn or something, then i might have some interest. or maybe a purple called Vincent.

:: A Letter to Elise - the cure

oh lovely, lovely song.