:: Dirge - death in vegas

lidong has changed his friendster status to 'single'. i have this feeling he's been checking up on me to see when i'd change mine. and then as soon as i did after our not very nice conversation last mornite, he changed his too.

i dun believe i shud tolerate u as a fren or try to be one to u because i cant atm
a shard of honesty which u nv extended to me.

ouch. it wouldn't have been as painful if i felt it was true. noidontcareidontcareidontcareidontcare. i told him it was tragic. if not for him, then for me. idontcareidontcareidontcareidontcare. i'm not going to harp on it and take two stupid yrs to get over this. sodumbsodumbsodumbsodumb. i wonder how this is gonna work out for me. i still have a grey army shirt, one army singlet, the cambodia singlet and boxer shorts whihc i bought him and whihc he used to wear when he stayed over, his army cap, two of his baby photos, lots of pictures of us, the silver lizard pendant he gave me for our one-yr anniversary, ubiquitous crystal jade restaurants to remind me how often we'd eat there. roast chicken-duck porridge and beef horfun.

idontcareidontcareidontcaresodumbsodumbsodumbwhylikethatwhywhywhywhywhy

i don't think i want to speak to him till he's sorted out his own problems. i don't need to cry anymore. nomorenomorenomorenomore.


mummy is awake. time to sleep before she says soemthing. bye.