been feeling quite blah lately. maybe it's the cold? i like dressing up for the cold though; i get to match my layers and wear the cute beanie mummy bought me, my gloves and a scarf. and my cheeks get blush when the wind kisses them. i don't know why i feel so unmotivated though. maybe it's cos i'm having shisha-withdrawal and cinnamon-overload.

i finally got down to cutting up the remaining two unrotted pumpkins, because i was trying to avoid touching my syntax textbook. washed the seeds and set them aside to dry, cut up the flesh and made a capalang pumpkin fudge. we'll try it when i get back from work tues midnight, when davin and kat are off their detox diet. i put more nutmeg than required so we'll see if we get high on that. haha.

claire and i have decided to sing madonna's Cherish for the benefit concert and i'm really excited cos this'll be the first time i play sing and play guitar on stage. and i'm really excited for it to go well cos i wanted to try something diff, like a song that doesn't already have an acoustic version.

i think i know why i'm feeling down. maybe it's the lack of fresh air. ever since it's gotten cold, i've been keeping my window closed and staying in more cos the central heating sucks and i don't have proper winter stuff.

last week, one of my customers and the guy at the video store both commented that i had a british accent. i guess here, without the singlish, i've actually started to speak the way i read aloud. oh well haha. the one thing i don't like though, is canadians telling me: english is your first language? no... but.. you don't sound like you speak english as your first language. i find that pretty offensive. are you trying to tell me what i speak? and yes i understand your question, you don't have to repeat it. now that just reeks of ignorance. the ones who say that are those who think that if you don't speak english with a canadian(non-francophonie)/north american/british person speaks it, then you you're speaking english with an accent and therefore must've learnt it as a second language (not in terms of pedagogical methods, but in terms of order of language acquisition). the one girl who said this to me (that i speak english with an 'secondlanguage' accent), i told her yes, but to me, YOU speak english with an accent. it's called a CANADIAN accent. i felt like asking her so what's your native language since you speak english with an accent? it must be Canadianese or something right? but i think she got my point so i didn't bother. sometimes i duno why i bother being so culturally sensitive when nobody seems to give a shit. ah hah amelia yo're such a bitch.

it's too cold to go to class. fuck.. i need a good one.